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| JUNE 18,20004? now its dec 24!!! wow... its been a while .. and alot of
wonderful things happened..... now, i have a man who i truly love &
respect... haha, im so inlove and i hate it........
never thought i'd fall for him though.. well, what can i say? things
happen for a reason right? at first i hated this guy very much cause he
keeps on bugging me.. but now, im madly inlove with him.. damn it. i
ate my words. hahahhaha!!!
but hell.. i dont care. im inlove. im content. im happy. and i LOVE HIM.!!!
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| HAPPIEST WOMAN ON EARTH~!!!
pheww.............. at last... cant control this feeling. he's the best thing in my world right now. =)
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| im just waiting for PACHA! my last party(hopefully)!!!
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| MOTHER MOTHER PLEASE GROW UP!!!
phew... since i was in gradeschool, i knw and mom knw i was and will be
a "gimikera" damnit. that's my only sin! i study hard, i dont talk back
at her and all the disrespectful shitty crap. anyways, we had this deal
that i have to be home before the sun goes up.cause she was always
yelling at me sayin "this is a house, not a dorm!" - doesnt she think i
knw that? but obviously, i have alot of friends ranging from my age
upto 30+. those people are already working but we all have the same
interests, our candies. anyways, we're not all candies, we've been
through alot of things, alot of issues and its funny cause i may be the
youngest one but they dont treat me like that. maybe the only thing
that matters is the the level of maturity in our group, and well, we
all think, my way of thinking can be defined that i am mature in some
aspects as to my opinions in their problems and in their lives, but of
course.... the word "BRAT" is still my title. hahahaha. well, they all
spoil me and all that crap, so im used to being like that, but i know
where my position is. anyways, for 1 month i stayed home, well..
goes out at around 4 pm and goes back home at around 8 pm, that's on
weekdays cause i always visit my very good friend Ces at pearl drive.
but on weekends, i go back before 3 a.m. and for me, phew... that's a
real change! but theyn, about 4 days ago, i visited Ces again, and
then,... around 1 am, a friend called up and asked if we wanted to
party and well.. Ces agreed and so did i... i told her that i had to go
back home at around 4 am. but then.. that 4 a.m lasted for like... 3
days. and ive been textin my mom, tellin her "ma, il be home soon" over
and over again.. until... last night, she called me up n said "inuuto
mo ba ko, katrina? wag ka ng uuwi dito!" - her same line for like 7
years now. phew.... so i texted her n told her things as if i was the
older one. haha, funny. cause when i went back home at around 6 a.m.
kanina, she was already awake and she never said a word. i dont care.
i've been through dis crap all my life and im tired of it. so... i just
want her to grow up! yelling people cant solve any problems.
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| What hurts what hurts...
:letting go of a person u've just learned to love
: reminiscing the good times u shared together
: shielding ur heart to love somebody
: trying to hide what u really feel
: trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes loving a person too much
: giving up someone u never thought of giving up
: having the right love at the wrong time
: taking the risk to fall in love again
: hiding ur relationship from someone else
: controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend
: thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never
even thinks a single thought of you...
: letting go, because every time you see the person, you only fall deeper..
: holding back only to find out when it's too late,
you both felt the same way, but were only scared
to lose each other so much that you didn't let
the feelings out
: falling inlove with someone you didn’t mean to fall inlove with
: finding the perfect person...with only one problem....he/she doesn’t love you...
: helping the one you love court your friend
: seeing the one you love crying for someone else
: the waiting also hurts like hell
: having to hear "... I've met someone"
: agreeing to his/her wish to 'just be friends'.
: asking his/her freedom back b’coz 'he/she'd be happier with her/him'
: asking u to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again.
: hearing that u're treated as a sister/brother (ouch!)
: sharing his/her future plans for the girl/guy with you.
: u stopped being friends b’coz his/her gf/bf asked him/her to.
: being denied in front of people.
: telling u lies where he/she'd been when actually, he/she was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame'
(whew!)
: he/she told u he/she'd be leaving u to return to his/her ex (d one he left 4 u!)
: breaking someone's heart
: fighting for that one thing that would make you happy
: that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his/her commitment unless he/she
fixed himself/herself...then, you are left hanging for the moment...then he/she says, time
will tell... but you still decided to hope in him/her and trust him/her
: PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying...
: PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness
: lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
: being with someone you can't actually love...
: pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
: being in love...
: making love with him/her, and thinking 'bout somebody else at the same time
: letting go even if you really don't want to... having no right to say you are hurting, because
it was your decision
: seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...
: having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that
things will never be the same again when he/she doesn’t treat you with the same closeness as
before
: having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that
you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
: admitting that you love someone despite her/his imperfections
:: finding out that the more you try to hate her/him, the more you end up loving her/him,
perhaps even more than before...
: realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
: the thought that this girl/guy, used to really love you and you loved her/him as well but you
didn't give enough and she/he gave up on you
: Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else..."
: making a promise....and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered....the commitment is no longer
there...
: the hardest thing about love - believing it
exists!!!!!!
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